I Wonder...

I look at him and I wonder. 

I wonder how he stands the endless stream of doctor appointments. 

I wonder how he endures all the needles they endlessly stick him with. 

I wonder how he puts up with the constant barrage of health problems. 

One thing after another after another. 

I know he gets discouraged and depressed, but for the most part he handles it well.  Sometimes he talks about it, mostly he doesn't.  My Kyle is not much of a talker.  When I ask what he is thinking I usually get "nothing" for a response.  But I know it has to be hard.  I know he feels he is a burden to me.  I know he wouldn't agree, but I think he has so much courage and strength.  I love this man so much.  He has made my life complete and I don't ever want to live without him.  So I think it's time for things to start getting better, because I wonder how much more he can take.