One Down Many More Years To Go

Today is Kyle and my 1st year wedding anniversary.  We went over to the cabin in Bear Lake Friday night and stayed until this afternoon.  It was nice to get away together for a couple of days.  The weather was perfect and the leaves were beautiful.  This morning Katrina, Darren and the boys came over to the Lake and we took the boys to see the beach and had lunch with them.  It was fun to spend time with them.  Their 3 boys are so cute and I love to give them hugs.  Tonight we had a fish fry at Mom and Dad's with the salmon Dad brought home from Alaska.  Kyle's parents; Katrina and Darren and the boys; and Kari and Jason came up from Salt Lake.  My family; Grandma; Susan and Craig; Brett and Chelsea; Emily and Sean and their girls; Karen; Janalee and Matt; and Bruce, Kelly, and Maggie James.  It was a lot of fun and we had more wonderful food than we could eat.

I look back on the past year and I can't believe everything we have been through together.  I've been gathering Kyle's medical records to try and get some disability benefits.  I started counting some things up and in the past year we have dealt with:

* Over 70 doctors appointments
* 4 Surgeries
* 5 nights in the hospital
* 4 trips to the ER
* 5 trips to InstaCare
* About 90 blood tests
* 5 tickets
* 1 car accident

I think that is all the highlights, at least the ones that stick out in my mind.  I love Kyle very much.  He is an amazing person and marrying him was the best thing I ever did.  I think that everything we have gone through has brought us closer together and made us both stronger.

The last couple of weeks I have really been struggling with my emotions and nerves but I know I am going to start feeling better and am hopeful that things will turn around for us soon.  So many family and friends have helped us out this past year.  We are always surrounded by love and are very grateful for it. 

All in all we had a really nice anniversary. 

Sumer Fun

These are some pictures from the Summer that I never did get around to blogging about:

Kyle and I saw this moose right down by the lake.  It was just North of the State Park

  

On the same trip we saw these 14 wild turkeys up by the cabins.



Kat, Darren and the boys came to see us at Bear Lake and we went down to the park at Ideal Beach



The boys loved the merry go round



Preston's favorite was the swings



The Steck Family enjoying the beach.



Kyle loving the swings



Garrett's favorite thing at the lake this year was to go for rides.



Kyle on Abby duty



Garrett trying to convice Jan to take him for a ride.

His trick was to get in the car and then convince someone to drive it.

I Wonder...

I look at him and I wonder. 

I wonder how he stands the endless stream of doctor appointments. 

I wonder how he endures all the needles they endlessly stick him with. 

I wonder how he puts up with the constant barrage of health problems. 

One thing after another after another. 

I know he gets discouraged and depressed, but for the most part he handles it well.  Sometimes he talks about it, mostly he doesn't.  My Kyle is not much of a talker.  When I ask what he is thinking I usually get "nothing" for a response.  But I know it has to be hard.  I know he feels he is a burden to me.  I know he wouldn't agree, but I think he has so much courage and strength.  I love this man so much.  He has made my life complete and I don't ever want to live without him.  So I think it's time for things to start getting better, because I wonder how much more he can take.