I have written dozens of blog posts in my head, but I
convince myself they shouldn’t be shared and I’m most likely right.
I’m not in a great place right now. This time of year is
never good for my mental well being. Add in the disaster of my personal life and
I’m pretty much barely functioning. Getting out of bed every morning is a major
accomplishment. I sleep about 5 hours on a good night.
I feel like I’m failing
on so many levels. I’m distracted and have a hard time thinking clearly at
work. That’s never a good thing and even worse when it’s a new job. My parent’s basement is full of all my stuff
and the thought of going through it and getting things organized is overwhelming.
It’s a good thing they are patient. I
feel like I take advantage of Marijka and her willingness to help me. I could
be doing more to help Marlee with her wedding planning. My church attendance
needs major improvement. As I said there isn’t much I feel like I am getting
right. Sometimes life is just hard.
